There was a period in my life when I was seriously considering suicide as a reasonable option.
The reasoning was as follows:
↪️ Suffering reduces our health and wellbeing
↪️ Everyone suffers for one reason or another
↪️ I produce more suffering when I am alive
↪️ I want to reduce the suffering in the world
↪️ Therefore, I would rather not live
At the time, I was not a "happy" person (to be honest, I am not sure if I am right now), so it is likely that my thinking was constrained by negative emotions and cognitive biases.
After around 5 or more therapy sessions, I started questioning the idea that suffering was necessarily bad (huge thanks to my therapist who pushed back on my ideas and never gave up on me 🙏).
I realized that suffering is what actually makes life interesting by forcing us to re-evaluate our goals and move forward.
Although I still believe that we could do better, especially in places torn by war and hunger, I do not treat suffering as an illness anymore.
This is what I learnt from the period: if you are in pain, don't go only for the pleasurable (too short-term) or the meaningful (too long-term).
Go rather for the interesting!
Being a little bit more curious about yourself, others, and the world does not require you to have a lot of money, many friends, or even go outside.
Here is a list of interesting activities you can do to increase your curiosity:
➡️ Explore new music, cinema, or literature
➡️ Express more gratitude to strangers
➡️ Message/call an old friend or colleague
➡️ Rearrange the furniture in your room
➡️ Take a free course on a weird topic
➡️ Try a new physical exercise every day
➡️ Share your knowledge for free
➡️ Start writing humorous short stories
➡️ Visit the parts of the city you've never been to
➡️ Write an autobiography
Also, remember that
(1) your suffering won't last forever,
(2) you are not alone, and
(3) asking for help can be also interesting.
So, take care of yourself and stay curious. 💛